Day 47

NOT...charot

Day 46

What if I don't wake up tom?

Day 45

I feel wrong, I'm so human and flawed

I break down even though I'm still strong

And time, will make fools of us all

Builds us up, and then laughs when we fall.

You, pull me through 

When I'm alone in the dark and the fear was my truth 

Yeah, all the things that you are 

Beautifully broken, alive in my heart

Ayos na sana ang gabi. Hmmm ayos na lang rin...hindi ko naman alam na sobrang sensitive ka na ngayon. Or baka ayaw mo na lang talaga ako kausap? Pero salamat pa rin! Sleep tight! 

Day 44

Watch me suffer. 

Day 43

And hold me tight 

Don't let me breathe

My phone broke down probably because I threw it about a lot before. So I used my old orange Samsung phone...the phone I used when we started our relationship. At syempre, the remnants were still there - our first exchange of text messages, our texts during your grad(and coincidentally our first month together), our first trip together(Cagbalete), during some of your achievements in life (defense, getting job requirements in Alabang, first day in the job, regularization, finding new friends etc) and your texts during some of mine (org events, election, high exams, low exams,  topic approval, defense, my graduation, job). 

And then I missed you. As in from the center of my soul, I missed you terribly. I don't know how to get this fucking hole out of my system. The pain...is still fucking there. Please don't go about telling me that I haven't tried. Because I did. For more than four months, I've been trying to convince myself that you mean nothing to me already. Sabi ni Yuichi, "You know it takes more than that." BUT I DON'T. It usually takes me less than a month to move on. But why can't I do that with you?!

Yes, yes, YES, I know you're happy already. And you think we're probably better off this way. But can't you spare me a minute or two? I'm about to drown in my own sea of tears. 

Day 42

Eh bakit miss kita? Bakit yung pakiramdam eh parang kahapon ka lang nakipaghiwalay? 

Day 41

Grabe naman, pandesal lang hinihingi ko araw araw pero para akong binigyan ng bonggang cake ngayon. Siguro payback na rin dahil wala akong natatanggap na pandesal recently? Juks. Pero grabe...yung dalawa kong crushie! Tyumetyempo eh. Nagsabay pa silang humirit! Yung isa nung lunch tas yung isa kanina kanina lang. Hihihi ♥ Charowtz lungs. Hindi naman siguro bawal na maging masaya di ba? Ayus na ang temporary happiness kesa araw araw ako lugmok.